The walls I had built were thick and tall to keep me protected and safe. They were built over time, each piece placed in reaction to a pain, suffering or rejection I had experienced.
The raw and beautiful feelings that flow thru the river of life had been buried deeply in the well behind those walls.
Being very adept at articulating my opinion and feelings on many topics. yet able to keep myself truly to myself had become natural to me.
Over the years that well slowly transformed itself into a volcano.
The feelings that I had so long ago repressed and others consequently never having been seen at all began to rise out of dormancy. For my spirit - God's spirit- would no longer allow me to remain unwhole.
I am truly blessed in that God has put before me situations and persons at just the right time with just the right soul and willingness to share their love with me, thus enabling me to see, reflect, understand, heal, grow and share.
Blessed with his gifts of awareness, reflection and the need to understand, coupled with the situations put before me, I began to realize just what I had allowed to happen to myself.
It has been a long, slow process. to see things for what they are. realizing there is a door, many doors in fact, to choose from. To invoke the courage to open that door and then to step into the light itself.... the light of love.. knowledge.. wisdom.. healing… is the path I have chosen to take.
It has been many things this new path I have chosen. torture, painful, frightening, awesome, amazing, enlightening, exciting and fun.
I have gone from being paralyzed in fear to dancing in the light. Yet the more I see the more I realize the journey has only just begun.
Tina